Writing this means to feel sad, depressed and drained.
Yesterday I started to create a design for Final Fantasy community I was a member of for over six years. This community is still online, but inactive since one or two years. It makes me sad, because I had so much fun with it and now everything is gone and became sleazy, because of the unactive members and ignorant admins. Maybe I feel this way, because I know each other well and can’t understand their attitude. I belong to a sort people who can’t to let go and worked on things until the very end, but there is no need if you are the only one who cares I think…
I’m not quite sure why I try so hard with this layout, because there is no need for it and I think I spend too much time with it (and effort) to share it on Grieved-Lightness.
I think I’m attached to it, because I always wanted to create a design for this website, but I was never allowed to. When I got my chance I failed – I always fail when I need to work on something I like. I always take care in creating web designs no matter if they’re ordered by a friend or a person I don’t know, but when I have to do something for myself I always fail. It’s the same with ordinary drawings. It’s like I have a blockade in my head and I have no idea what to do.
Oh dear, this sounds really depressed. Maybe it’s because of the Anime I’m recently watching. Mushi-shi makes me feel calm and contemplative. Maybe it’s because of the music that makes me feel home.
Here are two of my favorite songs from the Mushi-shi soundtrack I uploaded. It’s not that I wanted to share them to everyone. It’s just a sort of core or medium to show you what I mean.
1.「海境（うなさか）より」 umi sakai (unasaka) yori
2.深淵 shinen (fixed)
Btw: the soundtrack reminds me of Mononoke hime OST, but the composer doesn’t compose both. What a pity, because both of them created some kind of pleasent feeling.
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That’s usually happens to some old forums or community, unfortunately. People these days are kinda.. lazy? bah. OH MUSHISHI! 8D that was a great one, i like the soundtrack too, its calming and soothing <3 anyhoo, the second one’s url is wrong :] you inserted 2 http xD
Kiru added these pithy words on
Jul 10 08 at
2:02 PM
